[ He exhales, smoke pluming from his nose. What a question. ]
I wanted to live. A real life, you know? Not—
[ Scrounging in the streets, hardly able to feed himself on honest work, reduced to petty crimes and bloodying his hands to earn what he's due. ]
—living on the scraps of others deeming themselves better than me.
[ But that's a vague answer. He couldn't say such a thing to Ish and expect anything to come of it. ]
We found something, out there in ice. A spirit. I found a way to... connect to it. Commune. I don't know for sure what that would've meant, but it would've opened up a world I hadn't even known existed. I wasn't keen to keep living up in that barren landscape, but such a thing must exist elsewhere, too. Somewhere friendlier.
[The life Junior lead wasn't one of poverty, but he empathized with the feeling just the same--forced to walk down a path that those above you had shackled you into. Not really living.]
...but if you did find somewhere friendlier, would you even still need a spirit?
[Wasn't it enough, to be somewhere kind? Or had Hickey become so bitter that he needed that power--whatever it was--to get back at those who he felt had wronged him?]
Maybe, maybe not—but I wouldn't run that risk. You can't trust anything in this world.
[ His head tips as he considered Junior for a long moment. Then, he looks off into the mirrors, thinking of what Homura said to him at the end of carnival. People should at least be remembered... ]
[But a very big part of him, the part that was truly still just a child, really wanted to. No matter how illogical, no matter how hard he had been betrayed by the people who had dictated his life, he still wanted to believe in something better. Kinder.]
...thank you for telling me. It's good to officially meet you, Elias.
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I wanted to live. A real life, you know? Not—
[ Scrounging in the streets, hardly able to feed himself on honest work, reduced to petty crimes and bloodying his hands to earn what he's due. ]
—living on the scraps of others deeming themselves better than me.
[ But that's a vague answer. He couldn't say such a thing to Ish and expect anything to come of it. ]
We found something, out there in ice. A spirit. I found a way to... connect to it. Commune. I don't know for sure what that would've meant, but it would've opened up a world I hadn't even known existed. I wasn't keen to keep living up in that barren landscape, but such a thing must exist elsewhere, too. Somewhere friendlier.
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[The life Junior lead wasn't one of poverty, but he empathized with the feeling just the same--forced to walk down a path that those above you had shackled you into. Not really living.]
...but if you did find somewhere friendlier, would you even still need a spirit?
[Wasn't it enough, to be somewhere kind? Or had Hickey become so bitter that he needed that power--whatever it was--to get back at those who he felt had wronged him?]
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[ His head tips as he considered Junior for a long moment. Then, he looks off into the mirrors, thinking of what Homura said to him at the end of carnival. People should at least be remembered... ]
My name is Elias.
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[But a very big part of him, the part that was truly still just a child, really wanted to. No matter how illogical, no matter how hard he had been betrayed by the people who had dictated his life, he still wanted to believe in something better. Kinder.]
...thank you for telling me. It's good to officially meet you, Elias.
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But that's enough. He lets out a laugh, though it sounds a touch forced. ]
You're the only person in this place who'd say such a thing to me now. Be careful with your kindness. Don't let anyone use it against you.